Am I Happy?

Am I happy or am I not?

I feel my life becoming a knot

I think it happened when I was brought

Out of the spotlight, that’s what I thought

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I just don’t know, I don’t know anymore

What my life in this world has become

I think my friends have left me alone

Or am I the one that’s decided to ignore?

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I may need help or I may need love

I may need both, so could I have a shot?

A shot of adrenaline to help me soar

Out of this misery I have enthralled

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That was a lie, I’m not sad I am not

I’m just not happy, don’t worry that’s all

Why would you worry? You don’t care at all

What happens to me, that’s a job for my mom

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Do I sound pessimistic? I really think so

I’m just confused, it’s entirely my fault

I saw a video on how to be calm

And I learned that self-hatred’s my problem to solve

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Do I hate myself? Is that really what’s on?

I don’t think I do, but turns out I’m just wrong

Maybe that explains why I complain a lot

I think everyone has secret plans going on

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Secret plans against me, the center of all

I’m an arrogant man, deal with it and move on

So sorry about that, didn’t want to sound off

I’m a little mad today, does it show?